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心的两个方向

一个是即使不抱希望也从未令你失望的人

一个是一直充满期望也不断让人失落的人

我心上人的頭發是黑色的

這一年來其實錯過了很多事所以時間才過得這么快

發現這個圈子里好像只有自己言談之間不愛扯到現在正在做的事情因為的確也算不上光榮

庸庸碌碌好像也突然懂得了很多事

人物的形形色色不是只在別處

這個世界在這一年變得格外鮮活起來

一個詞的話突兀

當我一直覺得這一切發生其實是順其自然的時候其實這種狀況只是走不出過去走不進未來

而走到今天所付出的遠在當初意料之外

如果這也算是被寫好的命運

我到今天才明白原來我最在乎的也不過就是那些幾個人

不.一.

''我笑笑
　　　　　　　　你就以为我没事了

　　　　　　　　不是我掩饰的好
　　　　　　　　而是你根本不想了解我的心''

.. .. .. .. .. .. .. .. .. ..

不知道該怎么面對別人的不磊落和口是心非

不知道該相信耳里聽到的還是眼里看到的

不知道裝出來的驕傲還能支持撐多久不被自卑打敗

渐渐

以前的我, 读过不少书, 看过不少故事, 见过不少人. 清楚自己要什么, 不要什么.

想过要做个清高的人. 跟油盐柴米酱醋远远的脱离关系.

因为, 我不喜欢妈妈在我刚吃饱坐着享受生活的时候开始收拾屋子. 这样会让我难受, 想做什么, 又不想真的站起来. 我也不喜欢陪她去逛各种超市和市场, 看着她为了晚餐全家吃什么最营养而伤脑筋, 我也不欣赏当她发现离家很远的地方卖的蔬菜瓜果既便宜又新鲜时脸上的欣喜表情. 我更不喜欢她手上越来越厚的茧. 我觉得像个罪人.又恼又羞. 我不喜欢她对我生气失望时对我说我不懂她做的一切都是为了我好. 我会哭会难过也会愧疚, 但我没能理解.

我以为. 我并没有这样要求过, 就没有责任去分担.

我以前总是喜欢那些可以跟我一起谈论音乐电影流行服饰和咖啡的女孩子. 我对伶牙俐齿砍价时绝不留情的女孩子总有种距离感. 生活常识, 对我来说总是不如那些流行资讯更让我感觉亲切.

直到今天, 我发现原来我们都是那么幼稚.

而时间很可怕,渐渐改变你以为熟悉的一切.

我见过的不食人间烟火的仙女, 都慢慢变成菜市骂街的泼妇.

最好笑的是没人愿意去理解. 这些都是为了谁.

没人愿意扔掉一颗清高的心, 没人天生就愿意不计较一切的付出. 变的自己都没有感觉. 掏心挖肺对一个人好而其实人家根本不需要.即使这并不是故意. 就像我无意伤害母亲的感情, 而那种'不得不这么去做才这样去做'的弥补, 也许她并不稀罕.

我觉得我的心, 好像没有那么热了.

渐渐. 原因不愿承认, 也说不出来.

A Moment To Remember

I don't wanna hear a word in my ears.

I don't wanna say a word from my mouth.

i just hope it won't be a little bit too late.

feel like it's meaningless

i tried, failed, and i try again

i might be wrong, or u r gonna prove it to me one day.

maybe u r being always work on it.

I don't know.

i'm outside. trying to get into, but so hard.

do u ever understand that the 's' word is not what i want to get

I've been waitting for so long. Things you'll never say. Things you'll never do.

真相

心有余而力不足

自我安慰和欺骗

终会有一天当我想起你

泪流满面, 后悔莫及

Quiet

Baby says I can't come with him
And I had read all of this in his eyes
Long before he even said so
Why go, I asked
You know and I know why
And it'll be just as quiet when I leave
As it was when I first got here
I don't expect anything
I don't expect anything

Take care
I've been hurt before
Too much time spend on closing doors
You may hate me, but I'll remember to love you
Goodbye
Don't cry
You know why
And it'll be just as quiet when I leave
As it was when I first got here
I don't expect anything
I don't expect anything

All the waves of blame arrange as broken scenery
As they steal your best memories away
What if I was someone different in your only history?
Would you feel the same
As I walk out the door
Never to see your face again
Never to see your face again

And it'll be just as quiet when I leave
As it was when I first got here
It'll be just as quiet when I leave
As it was when I first got here
I don't expect anything
I don't expect anything
I don't expect anything
I don't expect anything
I don't expect anything
I don't expect anything to change when I leave

I thought we could make it right this time around.

I tried..

最好的时光

三次。我从不曾在场。

而转眼都已经快到第四个年头。说这样的数字我自己也不甘。

事到如今我想以后也不会再有机会来庆祝或者弥补我的缺席。

继续走吧。就像我一直对你说的那样。

我把我最好的时光，亲手献给我自己的背叛。

生日快乐。以后都要快乐。

找事

我特别佩服那种有事不问，有话不说，特别能憋屈自己的那种人，特别是女人，能做到这点真是特别不易。

但是注意，想知道但是不问，和不好奇才不问是不一样的。个中区别自己体会。

不好奇，不问。就是说特别洒脱。这种洒脱是除非特别喜欢纠结的人应该都有过的感受。

人，是决定因素。

克制，不问。其实也是有大智慧的一种表现。通常来说有两大原因，一个是自己估摸着差不多，可是不好意思问，怕被当成问白痴问题的白痴，比如在课堂上老师讲了好几遍别人都明白了但就是你没听懂的问题；另一个也是自己估摸着差不多，却是怕听到自己不愿意听到的答案，所以不问，搞不好刺激到自己，心情郁闷半天，很不值当，比如问问你的女朋友之前有过多少个男朋友。

事，是决定因素。

问题是。总是有人聪明一世糊涂一时。过得好好的突然蹦出来一个傻问题。不问吧，想知道。问了吧，情愿不知道。

这个问题的实质其实不在于人家怎么回答。而在于真相。你愿不愿意听着善意的谎言过一辈子？我觉得肯定有不少人愿意。可是你愿意了，人家需要圆谎的人还不愿意呢。圆一辈子谎，就为了让你心情好。累吧。真相如果不是那么不堪，提问和回答都比较轻松一些。当然这么美好的事情发生机率最高的时期是在人之初。如果大结局的时候谁还摊上一个问出来听到完美回答的好事，那就真是可以逍遥快活了。

在这里人们很难找到平衡点。好奇不好奇，一方面代表了在意不在意，当然不是全部代表我的意思是。问不问出来，则可以全全代表此人傻还是不傻。不过犯过傻的人也不必太过自责，这个世界上总有一些东西的共振可以颠覆一个智商300+的人百分之90的理智，比如好奇心+冲动+来回叮咚作响的在意之心。有些人二的，连自己是不是真的那么想知道都没考虑清楚就把一颗手榴弹问题抛出来。你让回答的人怎么面对。

人最好和蔼一点，别为难别人。何况你还在乎人家。

要不就是我的想法太过保守，总觉得了结所有过去才能义无反顾地有新开始。可是过去如果真的有那么容易被抛弃，那为什么总有人还想着一丝一缕的回忆？

所以，要不做个完美的人，要不做个洒脱的人。

议论完毕。

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巴黎人太多。乱糟糟。

几乎没有人真正关心‘别人’，而他们的心中绝大多数都是‘别人’。

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掌握不好缝纫机。每次走出来的东西都被老师嘲笑。我真是够了。我要日日踩夜夜踩，我就不信玩不过个缝纫机。

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法国鸽子从小受的教育不一样，觉得人不会抓他们去烤了吃。

我们从小接受的环境也不一样，从来只是听别人说，堕胎对女方身体不好。所以不要去做。我们还年轻，从来没认真考虑过这种事情。依稀记得有个朋友曾跟我说，她杀人了。当时的我只担心了她的身体健康会不会受到损害，没有太牵挂她的心理如何能够承担下来，甚至从来没有想过，那个孩子是一个生命。

你可以自己做选择，可是没有任何人的生活高于其他人的生命之上。

不要犯错。

送给我美丽的，坚强的朋友。他离开了，而我和你同在。

Please accept my apologies, wonder what would have been
Would you've been a little angel or an angel of sin?
Tom-boy running around, hanging with all the guys.
Or a little tough boy with beautiful brown eyes?
I payed for the murder before they determined the sex
Choosing our life over your life meant your death
And you never got a chance to even open your eyes
Sometimes I wonder as a fetus if you faught for your life?
Would you have been a little genius in love with math?
Would you have played in your schoolclothes and made me mad?
Would you have been a little rapper like your papa da Piper?
Would you have made me quit smokin' by finding one of my lighters?
I wonder about your skintone and shape of your nose?
And the way you would have laughed and talked fast or slow?
Think about it every year, so I picked up a pen
Happy birthday, love you whoever you woulda been
Happy birthday...

All I thought was a dream (make a wish)
Was as real as it seemed (happy birthday)
All I thought was a dream (make a wish)
Was as real as it seemed

I made a mistake

I've got a millon excuses to why you died
Bet the people got their own reasons for homicide
Who's to say it woulda worked, and who's to say it wouldn't have?
I was young and strugglin' but old enough to be your dad
The fear of being a father has never disappeared
Pondering frequently while I'm zippin' on my beer
My vision of a family was artificial and fake
So when it came time to create I made a mistake
Now you've got a little brother maybe he's really you?
Maybe you really forgave us knowin' we was confused?
Maybe everytime that he smiles it's you proudly knowin'
that your father's doin' the right thing now?
I never tell a woman what to do with her body
But if she don't love children then we can't party
Think about it every year, so I picked up a pen
Happy birthday, love you whoever you woulda been
Happy birthday...

And from the heavens to the womb to the heavens again
From the endin' to the endin', never got to begin
Maybe one day we could meet face to face?
In a place without time and space
Happy birthday...